This is a repost, written in early 2009 as my husband and I were considering our options, our work, our goals, professionally and personally. Besides a reminder of the decisions we made more than a year ago, I thought this post might be of interest to others who find themselves in that funny inbetween space between the past, present, and future.
How do you know when?
It’s difficut isn’t it?
Or is it?
Does it maybe get easier with age or experience?
It seems to me knowing when does gets better with age. When I was younger, knowing when caused me angst and gut grabbing pain. Finding the way to knowing when could be nothing but rabbit trails—quick fits, long lingerings, false ends, leading to confusing options. Sometimes spinning the way to knowing when made it impossible to know when at all. All that, what if, what might, what can, what will, stuff…gets in the way, especially when younger. Especially when the opportunity isn’t recognized. When fear settles in to frozen immobility.
Some things, like, moving on from a job, or deciding to cut an obsession out of your life because it’s the best most healthy thing to do, the knowing when can be obvious to others, just not to you. Listen to those who care about you. Let them help you know when. Most certainly, listen to the Lord as He speaks through them—and because you must—hand it over and don’t take it back.
Relax. Open up. Let go of ill will, stubbornness, judgements. Get yourself ready to know when. Series of events pointing the way are seldom random. As doors open, be bold and take them. Even if the experience is not what you expected.
Knowing when is seldom obvious, seldom easy. I believe one must be prayerful and intentional, and willing to wait, or act quickly as the case may be. Then, when it’s possible to know when, move with authority, IN the Authority of our most High God.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
But those who wait on the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.